I forget the English meaning of the entities IZZAT, AABROO,DAYRA,PURDAH.
I forget the Urdu meaning of the entities HONOUR,FAME,VEILED,PURE
I see triumph in my mother’s eyes as I make my way to college
Modernization engulfs me, transforms me, bewitches me
I forget my teachings, shattering the rejoice in her eyes
YET SHE REJOICES UNAWARE OF IT ALL.
white stone or what the west calls it, the white marble
PURDAH or what the west calls it slavery
SHOES or what the west calls it mocassins
IZZAT or what the west calls it liberty
Oh! stupid girl, many of your clan don’t get this far
You are ungrateful, you shame us, you are non-existent, a question mark, whose hollow hides your black deeds
The question mark straightens to exclamation,
The plateau to plains,
Oh, the deeds unveiled, scattered, ruined, smashed, DEMOLISHES you!
the worth of innumerable pieces,
I see water, fill the crevices, of those innumerable pieces
Ah!the mercy of the dilute,
The buoyant pieces, the weight of the deeds,
Clings, chokes, grasps
Until the buoyants, devours my brain,
And I can no longer reason , the syllables of sympathy tangles up like a dyslexic child’s essay.My throat becomes an ocean due of the tsunami.
My heart waiting to be crumpled, it’s wings chopped, wailing in tireless agony like a hurt deer
And when the heart goes out of reason, the brain TAKES OVER THE TERRITORY
Lulls to sleep!
The BUOYANTS Vanished, disappeared!
The PURE shatters!